From Disappointment to Hope: My Path to Motherhood Through Healing

You tell yourself this month is going to be it. You just know it. You can feel the connection coming in; only to have yet another disappointment... Not pregnant.

How many more times do you have to go through this? Is it worth it for your mental health? These were all questions and feelings that came up for me too when I was trying to conceive my first child.

It was a 2-year-long ordeal with each month deflating my hopes and dreams more and more. And then, when I finally conceived and was on cloud nine, a miscarriage at 6 weeks, then another at 10 weeks, the next time I conceived. Why? This is so unfair! I wanted to be a mom so bad!!

The dialogue would start each month with… I'm a failure, my body is failing me, I'm not good enough to be a mom, I can't do this, why is this happening to me? These statements were playing in my mind each and every day.

Yeah, maybe my relationship wasn't the greatest, and I'm not even sure why I wanted to bring a child into the uncertainty of it all, but I really wanted a child. I wanted someone to love who would love me back unconditionally. Okay… maybe I didn't understand the pre-teen years yet. 😂

Another month of disappointment? Another miscarriage. 😢 I started to think that maybe there was something physically wrong with me. I started journaling, and when I would go back over my journal entries months later, I would notice where my headspace was. I was a wreck. I would even say depressed.

I started going to psychics who would tell me I'm going to have children. I even started counselling for my relationship with my spouse, but that didn't last long. I found myself on my best friend's couch, pouring my heart out about my life.

What I didn't know was that my physical body was unable to nurture another soul because it wasn't being nurtured itself. My stress hormones were through the roof! Not a great recipe for fertility, that's for sure.

And when I would think about parenting, I certainly didn't want to parent like my parents did, and I WASN'T going to make the same mistakes they made with me and my siblings, either! All of these thoughts were actually hindering my mindset and blocking me from bringing a child into this world.

Two years passed with multiple miscarriages or unsuccessful pregnancies. My grandmother knew how desperately I wanted a child and bought me a fertility necklace. I don't know if you've ever seen one, but what you could imagine it looks like is what I wore around my neck for a few months.

What this amulet did was give me some new hope. It helped change my belief system that this stone piece was going to make me pregnant and able to get past the 1st trimester and finally be a mom.

Now, looking back, I see that I was using energy, vibrations, and frequency to clear my body so that I could bring through my two beautiful children. You see, the amulet was made of black onyx, and this stone is great for absorbing negative energy and neutralizing it. It helps sort our thoughts from truth and non-truths, it is grounding and allows you to be "in the here and now" and not stuck looking in the past.

The black onyx was the frequency that I needed my body to match to get my mindset in the right place to believe that I could get pregnant, deliver a child, and be a MOM. I didn't even know about the healing properties of crystals and gems back then. All I knew was that my granny loved wearing jewelry made from gemstones.

Now, as a Holistic Wellness Coach, I bring in all sorts of tools for my clients to use and connect with so they can have their frequency boosted to a vibration they need to bridge in their little soul(s).

The other thing that helps clear their energy field is releasing negativity from their body. Whether that is by using an emotional release technique, a forgiveness exercise with a past relationship or current one, or maybe they need to honour themselves with self-love.

For the best success, your body needs to be in a healthy mindset, with a higher vibration and energy frequency without any past or current life trauma still hanging around.

When you are meant to bridge through a soul in this lifetime, you will, but sometimes it takes clearing work on your end. Now, in this New Earth timeline, the little souls coming through are change-makers. They will take the Earth to its new level of being.

If you have been struggling with getting pregnant or sustaining a pregnancy, or you want some support to clear your energy field to be ready to become a Mother, I can help you on your fertility journey.

Here's to your journey of new beginnings!

Samantha Ross

Holistic Wellness Coach